Over the past few years, I have been on this journey of self-discovery. Rushing around trying to figure out what to do with myself and my life. Every day I thought I was getting closer and closer to this big AHA moment. The feelings of FINALLY figuring it all out brought me peace. Until much later, I then again, realized I still had more learning to do.
I learned how to become conscious of my thoughts during this journey, and found that on the inside I was asking all the hard questions. Many times on my journey I just became exhausted with trying to figure it all out. Then I became frustrated, because why the heck do we have to figure it all out. Of course, another AHA moment appears. Over time, I realized that maybe I don’t have to figure it all out.
Gaining awareness that I don’t have to figure it all out made me wonder, why did I feel this way? What is it about this life that makes us feel like we’ve got to figure it all out? What is it about the earth that makes us think that material possessions matter so much or some dumb paper? Why do we crave these addictions?
When you ask these questions over and over, eventually you will arrive at an answer.
Here’s what I figure… but you believe what you want. Whatever we truly are…. we are powerful… because we are more than this body. We come to this world thinking we have to implement the same level of greatness of who we really are. So, we create things that we believe will fill our souls and satisfy our hearts. Only to find out that we’re still empty on the inside.
I believe that we HUMANS came to earth to experience the FEELINGS of having a physical body. But having FEELINGS must’ve overtaken us, and caused so much confusion that we are all now lost in some illusions, uncertain and unsure of what the heck we’re doing. I mean think about it… feelings are the most powerful gift/curse that we humans have.
But yet, we’re worried about fixing our houses, cars, clothes, money, and bodies. I have so much more to say, but let me sum this up.
Every day, I’m realizing that life isn’t about the number of materialistic items you can get. It’s not about how much money or things you have. But rather about the beautiful step-by-step journey, the soul takes. All the failures and successes, the pain and pleasure, the confusion and clarity. For I am a soul that has everything it could ever desire… there is no need to try and create a world on the outside of more. But there is a need to maintain a world on the inside that is aware it has it all.